I.
The five years I spent studying at W.W.U in Bellingham after high school were the lost years. I lost myself
by trying to fit in. Most of the time, I was trying to overcome my own insecurity. Now I realize
I was insecure because I didn't know myself. How can anyone be a self assured and confident
person, when he is trying to be someone other than himself?
I was innocent, naive, and vulnerable. A lot of girls liked me, but most of the time I was too naive to know
about it, or too insecure to act on it. And for the few Asian girls on campus that liked me, I generally just
ignored them. The girls thought I was cute and nice, and my male friends thought I was honest and
sincere. In a way, it is true that "ignorance is bliss," but I was in an environment where
everyone was about the same age, and we didn't have any worries except for getting good grades.
II.
One day some friends and I went to the "Coconut Grove," a tavern off campus, even though we were under age. When I went to the bathroom,
one guy I didn't know followed me into the bathroom. He asked me where I am from, and I told him I am from Vietnam. He said he's
a Vietnam Veteran, and threatened to do bodily harms to me unless I leave the bar. I just remember feeling confused.
III.
I majored in Business Administration. I was an average student, since I didn't have much interest
in my area of study. Most of my friends studied Business, and that was the reason why I majored in
Business.
I was in a serious relationship with a white girl from a small town during most of my senior year.
I didn't think even once about our bi-racial relationship. We lived together off campus for most
of my senior year.
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